Black Hole Thoughts

Offering up this masterpiece  My heart is wrapped in bows I serve it on a platter  The music from it flows  Sucking in the air around  Belting out a mellow note  Satiated long drawn out  closing up the throat  Clearing but a mild patch  Tufty dandelions fly  Free to roam amongst the wild Letting go, exasperated sigh  Flowers in the wilderness    Revealing one by one  Quick visit from the darkness   But here comes the lovely sun 

Doing well and barely there  But really I am good  I know you think I’m hiding  Something that I’m fighting  I’m just misunderstood  I don’t know what it is  Holding down  this fear I’ve found  by being disappointing  All is well can’t you tell  No filter that is needed But wait come back  Help is what I pleaded  Fix this broken piece  Inside of me It hurts to be  Take it out  It’s hurting now  I’m tired  I’m doing pretty good  Perfectly great and well Like I always should  See me smiling Nothing that I’m hiding  Push it down  hold it there  I told you I was good….

Find me in that cozy place My mind carved out to search Pulling from the embers The secrets on their perch From the ashes come the bloom renewing all within its path beauty to behold once more  despite the overwhelming wrath Rerooting, growing, sprouting out like the springs meekest flower Too proud to call attention yet the fields she did empower Lonely graves turn into gardens  holding back that tender smirk Seasons change, ebb and flow but wickedness may lurk hesitantly letting go  hallowed moonlight dance Under stars of weary hearts darkness takes its chance Sudden hopeless serotonin quickly plummets to its death Euphorically crying out  until its dying breath

Tell me not what I want to hear but what you mean to say For if every word is lined with only love never to dismay Will the presence of your heart ever be so inclined to stay? Am I worthy of the darkest night that brought us to this day?