Black Hole Thoughts

Beautiful Betrayer in your admirable cloak   you left me in the darkness taking up your yoke Begging for a savior stretching out my hand   Why did you forsake me in that forbidden land  Was I yet unworthy of a rescuing redeemer  Hopeless omnipotent, self-righteous demeanor  Basking in the darkness where I spread my hate  Hardened, Blackened heart nobody’s to take  Inward spewing fiery loathing pain  Loving me is worthless, not an ounce to gain.  I found love in the valleys swallowing me whole Bruising gashes fervently take upon my soul Coming up for air searching through the night  Bring me out of Sheol and back into your light  Tearing down the veil, beckoning my heart Pour your spirit out with the love that you impart 

All pieces scattered among our home Kneeling down searching, I roam Help me I cry out in a whispered lull Monsters within us are taking their toll Gripping and grasping, tearing our soul You have me, you took me but let her go  I beg the heartache and hurt to subside Please don’t take her along for the ride  Beastly protector raging intensely  The pain your causing is hurting immensely  Tiny but mighty I know she’s a fighter  I’d take it all to make her feel lighter  Why take hostage the thoughts of her mind Loosen your grip, just help her unwind  The burden is heavy for such a child  Praying for patience and a temper more mild  Hand her to me I’ll care for her heart  Help me to love her until it departs  Grace in the waiting and trusting his will Know who is God, find rest and be still 

To be a fly on the wall of the brain consuming the space inside the place you call your head  Wishing to be be fully whole and complete or maybe just to be dull or be dead  She and the devil hash it out in the darkness hiding the fears of the life ahead  Beyond the now into the past getting stuck, how long does it last  No one is out there like they are in here  where the grayness is vast  Pull it out from within let it go it begins to heal the hurt that’s harassed  Mercy and grace pulling up from a place where darkness and light contrast 

Follow me to the abyss,  in these mindless fits that are lost in translation  get stuck at the station  Floating in space stuck in that place  Where thoughts collide  And blankness abides  Black hole consuming  My thoughts, assuming  My days are wasted away  Stalking the room That consumes  my thoughts within these walls sucking the life that calls Im down in despair  Pulling my hair  Out at the root Thoughts that dilute   Corners of life, never alive  My days are wasted away  silence not found In the hole in the ground  Hashing it out  floating out loud Screaming to save  up from the grave  Taking a breath  Out of the depths Of the black hole thoughts  The whys and the oughts  My days are wasted away